November 13, 2009

Ok here goes another one. I don’t really have a set goal this time. Well, I rarely have a set goal any other time. I guess it’s not that bad though. Some of the most famous, richest, greatest people that have ever lived never really had a goal either. I guess that’s the ultimate form of ‘thinking outside of the box.’ Goals are just caps, really. If you think about it, they’re restrictions. They’re good to have but some of us would be much better off if we shot past our imaginations’ limits. It’s like how people tell you that the sky is the limit, when there is a whole universe that exists around our stupid sky. In the private study rooms, on the fourth floor, of my school’s library there are many words of wisdom written on the walls. The bit about the limitations of the sky is on there. It’s funny what people write on walls. Mostly they draw phallic symbols or write the word “fuck.” I never understood the big deal behind the world “fuck.” Actually, I don’t understand how any word could be taboo. People are strange. They make up a whole language only to censor parts of it. I’ll bet you the person who coined “fuck” or any other curse word was just like me. Always trying to break out of the normalcy, to reach beyond the sky. To not only think outside of the box, but outside of the room the box sits in. I wish I knew more people like this. Everyone around me is quite content in their daily grind. They all have goals. I don’t want to have any goals. I don’t want to live with my head in the future anymore. I want to live for the present because I might get hit by a bus tomorrow. Today while I drove past the storage warehouse I thought about this. About how I’m going to start living in the moment and not caring about things as much. I also thought about how I’d love to live on an Indian Reservation for a year or two. I want to leave here. I want to see a sunset. I want to speak to the old and for once have them tell me that it’s okay not to have any goals as long as I keep my head high enough to see the sunrise.